117: Farewell

I want to say I hate you
But I can’t
I was growing to love you
And that hurts.
Nothing else matters;

Not the reason
For this treason
For this crime against my heart
Though I knew right from the start
It matters not.

It just hurts all the more
To know you felt it in your core
To know you wanted it but can’t
To know you’re not ready for my arms
It changes nothing.

You’ve committed no crime
You just haven’t done your time
Your past is still connected
And your freedom is affected
I can’t compete.

Though it kills me to hear you say
That we have to walk away
I know it to be true
There is still so much for you to do
So it’s over.

You haven’t grieved yet for your losses
You need to go and complete the process
I wish you well on your journey
Of my love you were worthy
So good luck.

I don’t want to say I hate you
Because it isn’t true at all
I really want to thank you
Because I have had a ball
So farewell.

Lady Satellite

107: Building A Path

Too little, too late
I don’t want to know
I’ve moved on without you
We weren’t going to grow.

You hadn’t the time
A relationship needs
Left unattended
The cracks filled with weeds.

The path came to an end
It had nowhere to go
With only one builder
Progress was slow.

I waited and hoped
Your schedule would clear
But that never happened
And the answer was near.

Somebody that’s ready
And willing to go
Into the future
And explore the unknown.

We’ll forge a new path
In the jungle together
There’s a long way to go
But the journey’s a pleasure.

The path just appears
It’s easy in fact
With two people building
It happens like that.

Lady Satellite

106: It's Been Fun

It’s been fun
But you were never mine
Now you’re going
I know
I’ve read the signs.

It’s been the best experience
I’m content with that
You made me delirious
So happy I could fly
And now as your soar away
I must find another thermal
To take me to the heights
I have been shown

Life will never
Be the same again
Goodbye my lover
Yet stay, my friend
These memories will abide
And give courage to my heart
Whenever I stand
On top the cliff
Ready to leap out
With wide spread wings

You’ve taught me things
About myself
And brought me back to life
To feel this deeply is a gift
Even if it cuts like a knife.

Lady Satellite

31: Honesty

Honesty defines a person,
yet what does it really mean?
Such an easy thing to utter,
to say hotly, “I am honest!”
But to live it is truly challenging.
The truth is powerful,
it often causes anguish,
to the bearer and receiver.
Use it carefully and with thought.
Beware the majority around you,
who do not have the strength required.

To avoid something, because it is difficult,
does none of us a favour.
As we skirt around the issues,
hoping another will make it easier;
we wait and hope for intervention,
that will release us from the pain,
of taking responsibility, for the truth.
But this is not honesty,
just procrastination based on fear!
Honesty may not make you popular.
It can be the hardest thing you’ve ever done.
You may be cast out and condemned.
Such integrity requires courage,

but do not expect reward.

Many people claim honesty
and stand high upon their soapbox,
declaring righteousness,
about trivial matters.
But give them human relationships,
matters of the heart,
they would rather run and hide,
than speak with honesty,
of their feelings or lack thereof.
They deceive openly,
or go silent in reply.
The most difficult type of honesty it seems,
is the one that says goodbye,
cleanly and without lies.

Lady Satellite

The style of this poem is deliberately jagged. It tackles an awkward subject which I did not want to dress up in balanced rhymes and humour. The style is honest like the subject.